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Fuck Republicans! [Mar. 2nd, 2006|06:09 pm]
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You Feast On: Fried Twinkies

You Lurk Around In: Closets

You Especially Like to Torment: Republicans
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(no subject) [Feb. 8th, 2006|12:43 pm]
sometimes i just wish i could dissapear.
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My so-called life or something [Jan. 12th, 2006|11:56 pm]
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[music |Belladonnakillz - From Bad 2 Worse]

Lately, I've become acutely aware that I should have been doing all this stuff like two or three years ago.
But, hey, its never too late to start.
Im seriously transitioning once again. Chris ver 3.0 should be fully developed and all the bugs worked out soon. Im beta testing 2.2 right now. Expect to see final product on shelves by the end of the year.
Wish me luck.
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(no subject) [Dec. 30th, 2005|10:32 am]
[mood |sadheartbroken]
[music |Golden Boy feat. Miss Kittin - Rippin Kittin]

Right now, I feel like im stuck in a cosmic rut.
I feel like my life is at a HUGE turning point, but no matter what I do, where I go, or actions I take, I cant seem to see far enough ahead to know what direction it needs to go is. I dont know if this is making any sense at all.
I feel like a fool when I do something that I know is taking a HUGE risk, and going against what EVERYONE around me knows is a very foolish thing to do, but since when have I ever been one to listen to anyones advice. How can you learn anything if you dont fail on your terms, right? But when you look at my repeated failure over and over again time after time this WHOLE FUCKING YEAR, you would think I would have learned a lesson. 2005 has been the year of the fuckup for me. All I can hope for is that 2006 will be different.
But I'm only fooling myself if I continue on the way I am going now. Its pure insanity to repeat to same things over and over and excpect different results.
If you all see way less of me, dont hear from me for weeks at a time, or just kind of never hear from me again, PLEASE know it is not because I'm neglecting you, or your friend/aquaintanceship. I know FAR TOO MANY fucking people, and Im constantly being pulled in SO many directions trying to appease all of you, and its a huge balancing act for me to try and keep you all happy.
Its not that i dont like you, its just that I need to take some time for myself for once. I give and give and give so much of myself, to so many people, and it is SO unappreciated. I would give any of you my last dollar, or the shirt off my back, and I seriously doubt that a lot of you would do the same for me, so please dont feel offended when I start being nicer to myself for once.
I need to figure out what direction Im headed in, and quickly. Im getting too old to be acting like this, and if things dont change in a major way very soon, i feel like i will have missed my chance to make things right completely, and it will be like this for the rest of my life, and that will be sad.
I will be at The SUPER Secret uber 1337 NYE party, so if you want to say "hello/goodbye/fuck you/whatever/etc." please do so.
I dont know how many parties i will be attending in the near future, but my guess is not that many. I could rant and air my complaints and critisisms of parties, but that is a whole separate and equally long post. In short, parties nowadays SUCK BALLZ, and I'd rather save my money, for more important things, like getting my own place.

So..... basically
I feel like something needs to happen. NOW. something drastic.
Im going to go insane if it doesnt.
IIm thinking about doing something really drastic to FORCE the next step to happen. I think hitch hiking cross country, or sometjing like that would definatly do the trick, but i really dont want to fuck up all possibilty of a normal, sane life.

I'll stop fucking wasting your time now and hit [POST]
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My new userpic [Dec. 23rd, 2005|03:38 pm]
[Tags|, ]
[mood |geekygeeky]
[music |Panacea - When Panacea Strikes]

Is rad. A lot of people dont know what it is though.
Theyre dumb. It's Plastikman logo LSD blotter.

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(no subject) [Dec. 16th, 2005|05:31 pm]
[mood |happyhappy]
[music |Crazy Bugs - DJ Jimni Cricket]

Google says you look like...

"(Your name) looks like"
Google the phrase "(Your name) looks like" and find the best one from the first page of results. Don't forget to put it in quotes, otherwise it won't work.

Google Says:
Deacon looks like Ryan, I think.
deacon, looks like you're doing a good job persuading everyone to come here.
Deacon looks like he’s trying to SUPRESS a smile.
If you’d like to know what Deacon looks like, consult a mirror.
But I wanna see what Deacon looks like so I can make fun of him.
This is what my new Deacon looks like, except it's got 12 strings and the chrome bridge.
Deacon looks like George Schultz with a little more hair.
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(no subject) [Dec. 2nd, 2005|11:35 am]
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Darcy [Nov. 30th, 2005|07:40 pm]
[mood |lovedLOVEEEEEEEE]

Spending time with Darcy is seriously the greatest thing EVAR. SOOOOO IN LOVE.
Yesterday, she drove me to my job interview, after spending the night at my house. (HOPE I get the job, I think I did a pretty good Interview.) Overdose on cuddles and hot chocolate and DVDS OMGZ. Then we drove out to Covington. We made "sex in your mouth macaroni and cheese" and I met her Mom and sister and 2 cats. Awesome house. Big back yard omg. We went to Fred Meyers and bought a chocolate birthday cake and pink nail polish. Darcy was in a silly mood and decided it was Harry Potters 6th birthday party cause all we had were 6 candles. We ate a bunch of cake and she played with the candles. We played connect 4 by candlelight, and then cuddled and watched Blair Witch Project. The we fell asleep. Today we were lazy bitches and sta around and smoked pot and watched The Wizard Of Oz while listening to Dark Side of The Moon. Tonight shal include more cuddles and kisses, more pot, and hopefully alcohol ;)
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(no subject) [Nov. 22nd, 2005|10:51 am]
[mood |confusedconfused]

I dont get it.
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(no subject) [Oct. 5th, 2005|11:31 am] Deacon took the free personality test!

"Needs a way of escape from all that oppresses him ..."

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